When I started blogging I had one focus : Write. That's all I really wanted to do : Express my self, my ideas, my values. Yet it's becoming increasingly difficult for me to just sit down and do the writing.

I now spend a good half to two-thirds of my day dealing with emails, conference calls, etc. etc. Not that I mind.

There is a lot of offline work that needs to be done most of the time before I can even do my work online. It's just that I feel "broken down" by all the "other work" I am expected to do but can barely accomplish.

I am living in the flesh that sexist comment about "I need a wife" (was it Gloria Steinem in one of her more inspired times?)

Yet, I mean, I am a wife. A working mother and wife. Grock knows I don't need a damn wife. What I really need is a staff.

I need not only an assistant. I need a housekeeper, a bookeeper, an events coordinator, a tutor for the kids and an afternoon babysitter.

Of course, the truth I "need those people". The problem is that I need a substantial operating budget --and that money I just don't have.

Earlier on Wednesday I twittered asking people for uplifting stories. I actually received links to quite a few. Unfortunately I didn't think of making sure I could easily get to the answers.

It's why am writing this post.

I ask for uplifting stories in order to lighten the "death, pestilence and disease" load on my blogs but especially over at The Awearness blog. We want to know what awesome and inspiring things people (or even you) are doing to change the word.

why, Why, WHY DOES THIS KEEP HAPPENING TO ME!

Ok, that's enough drama; but seriously, everytime I go out of my way to use Twitter,

it doesn't work with IM

it doesn't work with GTalk

Twitterrific crashes my browser.

WTF?!?!

I am testing a new journaling application I downloaded over at Apple.com. Here's a quick description of the application :

Journler is a daily notebook and entry based information manager. Scholars, teachers, students, professors, scientists, thinkers, the business minded and writers of every persuasion use it on a daily basis to connect the written word with the media most important to them.

I already have ecto but am looking for something a bit more sexier and a bit more in sync with Drupal.

I am here in NYC but after almost a month in Puerto Rico and two black-to-back conventions (BlogHer and YearlyKos), my meatspace hard drive is feeling a bit fried.

I am more than fried. I am in total denial. Sooooo don't want to be here.

That picture is where it's all at. That's the kids putting to good use all I know about boogie boarding.

Ahhhh. Boogie boarding.

Man, I had no idea I missed it so much. It's like sex, you really don't know when you are going to sweet spot but once you do, the ride is just thoroughly thrilling.

I need some thrills in my life.

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I can understand the logic of spamming people's email inboxes with offers of :

1. cheap drugs
2. free sex
3. illegal insider trading deals
4. penis enlargement miracles

What I don't get is the logic of spamming my inbox for watches. Rolex watches.

WTF!?!?!

Drugs, sex and watches?

What is that about?

I really, really, really want to fault Twitter for the disappearance of my database. In truth, I am not sure what the hell happened although I suspect that, while updating the site's platform (Drupal), something happened to the database that basically 'broke' the sequence of posts.

So no matter what I would post, to the anonymous visitor there was nothing on the front page but, for some bizarre reason, if I was logged in, all the posts were there. And this happened no matter how much I tried to tweak permissions to the site.

Worse part of this? I thought I had lost two years of posts. Helas, I found the posts although, given the changes in Drupal's database schema, I am not happy at how the posts' body are now separated from all there rest of their information and slopped into 'revisions'. Grock knows how long it will take me to repost the old stuff.

I honestly do not understand the logic behind this. Actually, I have been playing now more and more with WordPress and, I have to say, I am inching back to the idea of publishing with it smaller blogs and leaving Drupal behind only for potential community sites.

This site was originally created in Drupal, but honestly, for small blogs, the complexity of Drupal is absolutely not worth it.

My dream?

To build a backend that will make it easier to post and manage a network of blogs developed in different platforms. Or at least in the two I am using right now.